Before the Royal Free lawyers start reaching for their writs I must make it 100 per cent. plain that I think that the Royal Free Hospital is one of the best hospitals in the country. And I must make it 100 per cent clear just what I am attacking. Six times in my life I have nearly died because of the actions of bad doctors. On the first five occasions my life was saved by good doctors. On the sixth occasion, when I was locked up against my will in the mental health ward of the Royal Free for Christmas 2004, I saved myself. What I will be attacking is not people. The ‘bad’ doctors who treated me were mostly more than decent human beings. What I shall be attacking is not people but the training system which fails to spend anything like enough time teaching what I regard as the most important skill all doctors need. The ability to listen empathetically to the patient.
There will not be another word about the Royal Free in this particular blog which will be about the first occasion I nearly died because of bad doctoring. That was in July 1953. Winston Churchill was still Prime Minister, aged 78. But, though I did not know it at the time, he was not in charge of the country. He was not even in charge of himself. He was having more difficulty even than during the war with his own manic depressive temperament and the bouts of drunkenness which went with it. His ability to work effectively was also being affected by physical illness.
At that time I was still in the smoky old Black Country. I was living in Birmingham where I was at the end of my second year at the University (Chancellor, Sir Anthony Eden, who was also Deputy Prime Minister). I was still making regular visits to Wolverhampton on Saturdays because in those days the names of the Wolves footballers were known to all the schoolboys in the land. As I write I see in my head the blond head of Billy Wright rising to meet the ball above the heads of all the other players, as he executed another brilliant header.
But it was July, and a blazing hot July. And, exams over, I was playing tennis that Friday morning. At the end of a not very strenuous game with a girl I was courting I had a terrible headache, so immediately after lunch I took myself off to the university doctor, who I had never had cause to consult before. He told me that it was nothing to worry about. It was obviously because I had been working too hard for the second year exams. In vain, did I explain to him that this was no ordinary headache, once, twice, three times. But he didn’t even examine me. He sat at his desk and wrote me out a prescription for – aspirins. Even though I also told him that I had a bottle of aspirins back at my digs.
I never took that prescription to the chemist. I did not even go back to my digs. I took the next train to Wolverhampton, went home where my mother put me to bed and called in her own doctor, who was a woman called Dr Pitman. She came round late that Friday evening and listened carefully to what I had to say. She then examined me, feeling the back of my neck and making me try to do funny things with my legs. She came back three times on the Saturday. She came back again on the Sunday morning. And on Sunday afternoon I was in an ambulance on my way to the Royal Hospital in Wolverhampton. It was only three miles but it still stands out in my memory as the most painful journey of my life. The headaches by then were splitting my head apart and the bumpy ride in the ambulance made them even worse.
The consultant told me that if I had come only a day later there would have been nothing they could do for me. And, as I discovered later, if I had had the illness only a year or two before I would have died because it was fatal until two new drugs were invented and used in combination. I had ample time to find out all the facts about my condition because the cure involved me lying flat on my back for four months.
There is not much you can do for fun in that position, unless one of the nurses jumps on top of you. Sadly, that never happened to me. But I longed for it to happen and as I write the face, topped by auburn hair, of a smallish young woman appears on the television screen inside my head. Actually she was not a nurse, she was an occupational therapist, who was attempting to get me to do a bit of weaving in my prone position.
The illness was tubercular meningitis. That happens when the infection gets into the fluid which surrounds the spine and goes right up to the head, which is where it kills you. The first drug that was necessary was streptomycin, one of the new anti-biotics where were developed in the years following the discovery of penicillin by Alexander Fleming in 1928. The streptomycin was injected through a long needle which had to be inserted between the vertebrae of the spine. It was not very painful at all if the nurse hit the right spot but if she missed the target it made you want to scream. Some of the nurses were brilliant at it. Some of them were terrible. Amongst those who were terrible were two or three who stirred up the most passion in my youthful loins. So I suppose I matured a bit. Looks ain’t everything.
It takes a long time for new drugs to get from the inventor’s laboratory into hospitals. Penicillin did not come into use until 1941. Streptomycin was invented in 1944 and came into use a few years later. But it could not cure the meningitis on its own. It needed to be administered along with another drug, izonasid, which was discovered by a Hungarian scientist in the late 1940s. When I became ill the scientists and the doctors together were just learning how to use these two drugs together and to determine the optimum doses. I was one of the first cases to be treated with them in a British hospital.
Dr Pitman, because she kept up with the medical literature, knew a bit of this. What she was doing in between her visits to me was, first, looking it up in the medical journals, then talking on the telephone on a Saturday to the consultant at Wolverhampton’s Royal Hospital. He was talking to a colleague he knew at a London hospital and relaying his suggestions back to Dr Pitman, who then came back to do another test on me.
I felt, and still feel, enormous gratitude to the scientists and the doctors who made it possible for me to live beyond 19. For many years my gratitude to the doctors was because they were all so dedicated that they were prepared to give up a part of their weekend to heal the sick. Now I realise that even more than dedication to the Hippocratic Oath, what really saved my life was the Dr Pitman’s ability to really listen to the patient. Some people naturally listen better than others. But the listening can be learnt. And all doctors could do with a lot more training in it then they get.
Now back to Dr Pitman. She was part of the large and extensive Pitman family. And like most of them she was a Quaker. Her religion was most definitely part of the reason that she was so dedicated to healing the sick. But the Quaker religious practices are also an excellent training in listening. Apart from quaking physically (which is why they are called Quakers) Quakers in their group meetings, express their thoughts and feelings to each other. And, above all, they listen empathetically to each other. And engage in a dialogue with each other.
Readers by now must be quite dizzy by the number of subjects which I have touched upon in this article and the way I have leaped from one to the other.
This is quite deliberate.
This blog is one of those in the manic depressive diary slot, in which I am attempting to demonstrate how the human mind works in manic mode. All the ideas and facts contained in this article were present in my head when I sat down to start this article. There were also another two different, but related, subjects about which I wrote 600 words in the first draft. Worse, there were also ideas for several more articles, about the many experiences of my life with good doctors and bad doctors, all in my head when I started. So this is only a small sample of what comes in one fell swoop into the mind in manic mode.
All the ideas I have not written about will come up again in my head in the coming weeks. But I am not sure how long it will be before I can get around to writing about the events in the opening paragraph. Just what was it that nearly killed me at the Royal Hospital in the early weeks of 2005?
I am not yet ready to write about that because it was such a powerful experience. And because I have to find the right words and the right style to make what is clear already in my own mind comprehensible to minds which might not work in quite the same way.